new 2011 .. a Letter for MoM

a year went by so fast. I have not had time to even breathe the air.
seconds. minutes. hours. days. weeks. months. years.
wah. gee ..

what I've done one year ago?
had I done what I should do?
or maybe I have not finished what I should do.

I was negligent. I put off work that I should do.
what the hell have I been doing?
I was really stupid.
time will never come back.
I will not be able to do the things I had previously delayed.

why regret always comes too late?
hhhuuuuhh ..

now, just instropection can I do. and hope I can do what I should do well.
hope that God always forgives me at every step.



to my beloved mother, why you do not want to talk to me? had I done something that hurt you? please tell me, mom.
do not you set aside. I am your daughter.
why you can not understand me, O my beloved mother?
why you do not like me, O mother who I love?
why you see me with eyes like that, O mother who I love?
why do you blame me with what happened in the house, O mother who I love?


why any problems that arise, it is always connected with me?

You do not ever blame me with words. however, all that implied. but you ever once blamed me, and do you know? then, my mental fall to the earth's core. how can a mother who I love and I respect to do that?
I was shocked. very surprised.

mother .. you are a woman who really I love. Did not you know, what I achieved and I'm tired right now is for our future life?
I may not tell anyone, but trust me, mother. I'm trying my best. I beg you, I was always supportive, please support me so that I am strong. because actually, I am weak, O mother.

mother. your name is always there in my every pray.
mother. hopefully we stay in the way of Allah.
until we die, we remain in God's way.
and God will arrange a meeting for us later in his heaven, amen>. <

Do not be sad mom, remember God's promise. I love you wholeheartedly..


hugs and kisses,

your daughter :)